Friday, September 13, 2013

The wait..

For a while I have been waiting; for plenty of things to happen according to how I want them to happen. Well, after waiting for such a long time, I've never known whether I've waited long enough for it. Sometimes when you wait for something to happen it tears apart your instincts and the hope. Hope is such an entity which doesn't kill you while you live. It doesn't let you make those wrong moves. It doesn't let you think negatively for a long time either. The wait has taught me many things about myself. Firstly, it has taught me tremendous patience with myself and most importantly with other people. It has taught me to see good things in future for myself.  I have learnt that everything happens for the good, and everything always happens to teach us something. 

The wait has gifted me with the ability to not over react.  It has taught me obedience to situations around me. It has taught me to deal with people sailing in the same situation.  It has taught me diplomacy to an extent and how to deal with certain truths of life.  It has taught me to avoid certain aspects of future and handle the present with discipline.

The wait surely has taught me how to love better; be it myself or others. It is this wait which makes me grow and mature in future and helps me to thrive for more. Yes, it killed me from within, it questioned my loyalty and my ability to change, but I know the traces of this wait has given me people like me which I will cherish. 

Monday, June 03, 2013

Reflection in Motion

I was reading the book "Bring out the Magic in Your Mind" by Al Koran. I still haven't finished reading the book, but I know for sure that this is the best book I've ever read. This book gives a fantastic perspective about how life could be changed and I think if I apply this book well enough, my life's surely going to transform. Well while reading the book my mind said to me "You should go out for a walk in the morning tomorrow". This is a conversation that happened between my conscious mind (Mr. C) and my sub conscious mind (Me).

Me: I think I should go for a walk tomorrow morning.
Mr. C: Have you lost it? You haven't done it in ages. Why do it now?
Me: Look at the beautiful weather. Imagine how it would be in the morning!
Mr. C: Hahahaha... 

So, I command my mind to wake up and go for a walk in the morning.
It's 6 AM, my alarm goes off..

Me: Alright buddy, lets walk. 
Mr. C: Let me sleep for another half hour please. 
Me: Let's try..

I wake up, go to brush my teeth. Look into the mirror and smile. "Can I do it?"


Me: Come on! Let's do it. 
Mr. C: But why?
Me: There would be pretty girls out there. 
Mr. C: Ya, but with their moms protecting them.
Me: But that's still an incentive right?
Mr. C: Hahahahahah
Me: Hahahahahha
Me: Ok. Let's go. 

So I brush my teeth and pull out my tracks and get going. Looking at the little movements on the road, I wonder what people might be doing right now. Getting ready for the rat race I suppose. I know that there are atleast 20% of the people who decided the previous night that they would go for a walk and stayed back in their slumber. I felt proud. Just when I took the first left one dog came running straight into me barking. I froze.
Mr. C: Ya. So much for your pretty girls exploration.
Me: Get away dog.

So I continue walking after the dog gets bored of me and get into the gates of P & T quarters. I take a left on the road and see beautiful red flowers carpeted. This is what I wanted to see; Wish I had my camera right now. Expectations were set high to find pretty faces, but I end up finding no one below 35, just for the odd children who were playing cricket in the field with their RCB and KKR Tees. Ah the IPL fever still on.

Mr. C: So what do you want to do now Mr. Thinker?
Me: Think, ofcourse, and observe.
Mr. C: You wake me up at 6 in the morning to think and observe? You are one of the most horrible people I've met.
Me:  Okay, let us look around.. Shut your logic up.. 

I end up observing multiple people. There was an old man trying to jump on alternative legs and he was out of sync. It looked more like how we try to do multiple things at one time in life and end up looking funny to everyone else. Everybody's time bound - trying to get many things done in a short time. Some women wearing sarees and shoes were walking swiftly feeling proud of walking 4 rounds like it's a daily task to finish only so much. I hear them say with relief "If we take this left here it will be 4 rounds".  I also over hear some conversations where one woman was swearing at someone that it is going to be the end of it. Whoa! Not easy listening to murderous statements early in the morning.

Moving along I definitely found a couple of faces that I wanted to see. I wonder why are the earphones always plugged in. Talking to someone are you? Enjoying the cool breeze I keep my stride swift. I walk around to find some people exercising in the ground and stretching out their muscles. Now that's some place I want to get in a couple of days. Fit. I find another woman feeding bread to the dogs who were wagging their tails with some supreme amount of joy. There were a couple of old men walking along with a big fat stick pretty similar to a police lathi. The dogs were petrified looking at the stick.

I walk around into more secluded areas. I look around at the facades of the buildings. They are small, cozy apartments built, mostly made up of concrete. The small balconies overlook trees and the small roads. People in there are contented even though it's not luxuriously built. It reminded me of the Air India quarters in Mumbai where my cousins used to stay. Their balcony used to overlook a large field covered with grass. It used to look like heaven to me as a child. I think to achieve big dreams we need to start small. Constantly keep doing small things, and those lead to big dreams. We can't take giant leaps. We are bound to fall that way. Small steps are better. Push yourself to do the small things.

Mr. C: So what are you thinking? 
Me: Life is beautiful indeed. There could be multiple instances where you don't get what you want, but you end up with the hope that you will get it. It's just the belief you need to have every single moment of your life.
Mr. C: So you thought about this looking at all these people?
Me: Kinda yeah! Look at all these people. All are 35 plus. More than half of them are here cause their doctor told them to exercise and take a walk everyday. Though governed by someone else, which is okay, these people are out there trying to improve their health. There are a lot of them waiting to fall sick and then get out of their beds every morning.
Mr. C: Wow, I never thought of that. 
Me: Yes. There are struggles that everyone goes through. But, you end up telling yourself to wake up every morning and see it as a day of victory and hit it hard again.
Mr. C:  Can we explore a different place tomorrow? More trees, more fruits ? 
Me: You would never give up on that will you?
Mr. C: I get incentives while you think Mr. Thinker. 
Me: Haha.. Fine ... I'll listen to you as well. 
Mr. C: Can we go home now? I'm starving. 
Me: Food for your brain will always come after your stomach won't it ?
Mr. C: Absolutely. I have you for the first one. 

Sunday, April 28, 2013

The closed distance

Was familiarity stricken,
but the realization crossed the meet...
we did meet, but yet did not.
conversations of plenty, some of fears..
smiles of abundance, and those of happy tears ..

When the distance didn't matter,
but only the matter did,
our talks of lives remained splendid..
Whatever we spoke, was from the heart,
connected our minds, and was no art..

The journeys were shared,
and the roads of philosophy met,
for your care, i am in debt..
the bonds shall prevail and the roads shall meet,
being with the best is always a treat...

Friday, April 26, 2013

The Channels

There comes a time in our lives where we find ourselves in multiple situations of frustrations. For example, people who stay far away from their work places are frustrated riding their vehicles for hours on the road. You'd want to just go home and crash. When you reach home, you would want to relax and recoup but you'd hear more annoying stories that happened during the day. You switch on the TV and they keep bombarding you with more negative. We sit and complain about the person who we don't even know, but do it anyway cause we think if we vent out everything would be okay, but don't realize that it keeps adding more to our irritation. Then there comes a point where you want to just get out of the city and go relax somewhere for a few days and forget about everything. When you move out of the city for a getaway, you face frustrations of inflation everywhere. Well, there can be more, but I guess you know where I'm heading.

There are multiple points in our lives where frustration creeps in, and the frustration definitely knows how to have fun with us. The root cause I would feel is where we have so fine tuned ourselves to keep complaining about things, that we have forgotten that there could be a possible solution. A solution would be as simple as making a conscious decision of not getting annoyed on the road. We have control only of our vehicles, and not someone else. Whatever should happen would definitely happen. You cannot control inflation by speaking about how it controls you, instead do something about it. Buy lesser things, save money until it subsides in your head. There are plenty of ways where you could find a solution. Like some of us maybe complaining right now about what I'm writing and as to how can there be a solution for everything. You're right. There cannot be a solution for everything, but there can be workarounds as well. The least I learnt being an engineer is to create a workaround for myself during certain situations. If something doesn't go according to my way, I would find a temporary solution to it. I read a quote recently "Happiness doesn't come to people who aren't satisfied with the things they currently have". So true. As human beings we constantly have this need to have more; which is fine to an extent, but it depends on how we make ourselves meaningful by wanting extra things. Maybe I'm also complaining to an extent in what I'm writing now, but I'm complaining that there need not be any complaining to do. We can find a solution. There's definitely a way out to everything.