Juxtaposing

I tried...
Looking at different angles of life,
through prisms, through lenses,
through eyes of others, through silence,
through the chasms of complications,
through the breeze of serenity...

The eeriness of everything, of paths,
the friendliness of faces on the streets,
the breaths of little angels on my cheeks,
the pets of faith and loyalty,
the hands of love and joy...

The complexity increased, just in me,
the questions bounced back, at my face,
the answers were still stored in the attic,
the stairs led me to the haven of discomfort,
the majestic sun seemed a little too dark...

Kept seeking as the fighter that I was,
Pretty much like a motion picture,
the reel unveiled the story one by one,
It asked me to let go, love without boundaries,
It asked me to see without curtains of hate..

It had no language of wisdom,
though so wise that I cherished,
live the moments of joy and distaste,
live the world outside your head,
live the moments of death and life..

Go Easy with Life

Many might not know about the "Johari Window". Google it. I was just going through it again recently, trying to identify my blind spots. They say when you seek answers, miraculously they alive come in some form or the other. One of my blind spots pointed out by a friend is that I take life seriously, but I guess things change, and they should. Change is inevitable and we must all agree, change happens everyday. So is change for good or for bad? 80% of the human beings don't realize change is for good. Don't worry, if you have realized it, you are not in the 80%.

So why did I take life seriously? To be honest. No clue. I guess there are some experiences with life and relationships that we try to push them to the limits, they break apart and they make us serious. Some things don't work out for us, and we keep playing the same record over and over again in the mind that makes us do things at times that do not work in our favour. Simplicity is complex enough by itself, but the issue really is that we end up thinking too much about making it simple, that it gets complicated. Like for example, some simple daily decisions which might help us lead a simple life. Like, listening to your favourite songs which brighten up your mood. Daily discipline has been an improbable topic for me. I wonder how some people have the patience to sit and do things and everyday - see?, This is how I complicate it. Why think about it? Do it mate! The reason I might not do it, is because I don't believe it'll work for me. Actions create habits, and trust me, we don't have any hiccups in liking our habits. We do them day in and out and enjoy doing them, be it good or bad. Rather I would say, we don't have a choice but to follow those habits diligently. Wrong? Then why are we bad at breaking our habits apart? Mood? Mental strength? Probably taking life seriously was a habit with me, so have I realized it now? What am I going to do about it? To be honest, I had to think about it, think deeply as to why I do it, some of them have promised me to help me out with it, I guess they will, cause I have given in to work on it. Is it going to be easy? I don't want it to be easy, I want it to be simple. Is there a difference there? Would definitely like to thank my friend for making me realize it, probably those interesting conversations did the magic. "Listen to your favourite song in the morning everyday, and your day would be great", I did it this morning, the day went great. "Faith is belief in the unseen", and I am banking on my faith. 

Dastak

Pag pag se raah sudhaarun,
uljhe uljhe se vichar suljhaun..
ye dwaar pe kiski ab dastak,
nyota bina, bhent saath padhare..
apni hi parchayi si dikhti
mud ke bhi dekhoon na..
apni hi soch se main waaqif nahi,
is baar vehem ki gunjaaish nahi,
ruka main teri manzar pe,
teri soch bhi chhede mujhe..
thak bhi jaaon, lafz badhe,
raaz un saanson ke alfaaz,
taqt pe jawabon ka guchcha..
hasi mein chupi muskaan bane,
milan ka sandesha ab gumraah nahi..

Shukriya

ae dost, teri mehek si lage,
jab koi na ho, tu dikhe..
darr ho, pyaar ho, tu saath har pal,
soch se bhi tu aage, ye mera phal..

teri dhwani bhi prakashit kare,
jo roye mera dil udaas,
mude hue raston mein saath chale,
manzil ke har dwaar hai ab khule..

haath thaame bina tu haath thame,
khushi ko bhi kabhi kabhi mehsoos.
lafzon se dosti ke anek rang dikhaye,
mann mein mehetv ka deep jalaye..

dhanya hoon, mere jaise mujhe mile,
lage teri marham si baatein..
chhaap chhode jo samudr ke kinaare,
sagar bhi teri dosti ko pranaam kare..

Wish I had a time machine

The quote which is on top of my mind right now "In life, God gives us what we deserve, not what we need". Slap on the face right? At least for me it is. Right now I feel like owning a time machine, and going back in time and creating some of these characters whom I know right now. Wish, they were there some years back, life would have been different, but again, I deserve them now, I didn't deserve them before. Some really really interesting people whom I bumped into recently. Why weren't they in my school, in my tuitions, in my college? But then again, what did I do with the people who were there with me in those days? Do I have them now? Do I love them now? They say, when you meet the right person, the bell will ring. I guess it rang, but wish it rang a few years ago. Why do I say that? It's so freakin uncertain you don't know what to do with the bell. The inner voice pushes you, but the mind says "Hold on mate, do your analysis". Enough of this "Paralysis of Analysis". Wish I could take some people and put them through this crystal ball and see if the bell that rang was right.

The bell will keep ringing, do I really deserve them, or more so, having the self image that I have, Do they deserve me? Someone who is so keen in knowing "The Self" so much that it kills him everyday, will he get someone like him? Will he ever meet someone who is as competent with "The Self"? Will he ever get someone who sees the smile of a person and knows through and through what the other person might be like? Place in the pieces of the jigsaw and finally understand why he did what he did. All you find him doing is asking questions. He's intimidated by competition. He doesn't like it, but it pushes him to explore more. The mirror is his best friend. The smile in the mirror is what he has learnt to perfect. Will he ever find someone like him?

I shook hands with a few people who looked like me. They were deceivingly slow for my pace. So what, you may ask? You speak to me about life, and I'll sound like a 40 year old. I'm already almost half my life ahead in thoughts, so I need someone to run along with me. You might be intimidated by my character. Some might get "impressed". No, I'm not in this world to impress anyone, I don't need to. Beyond all the impression that you have, the expression matters the most to me. Listen to what I'm saying. You put me through a crystal ball and see my past. Growth has been my agenda. Growth has to be a daily thing, like bath, else you stink anyway. You speak to me, and I know what kind of books you read, I know how much you are not influenced by someone like a John Maxwell or a David Schwartz or a Richard Branson. I know that a magic spell from a book for some is more influential than a person who is willing to pour out his or her life into you. Wish I had a time machine, no it's not late, I just wish I had a time machine to see what your life has been like. What were your friends like, what was your environment like, whether your soil has been fertile enough to take in the seeds of love and contentment which you will receive, whether you can respect what I've been through. If you are like me, even what I was like 6 years before today, you will have me. Rest assured. 

muskurati lamhe

Baat chede tujhse akele mein,
phadphadain palkein, ki nam hui..
hashr ab bebas paa liya,
khushi ab choome mere honth...

muskaan ki ab aadat si ho gayi,
dil dhadke to bas tera naam..
dost bhi ab chede natkhat,
bas karde ab usko bayaan..

darr se kabhi saans thame,
usi darr ne aansoo pee..
koi le na jaye ye lamhe,
jo kiya maine khud se hi pyaar..

paaoonga ye ujwalit si kiran,
cheenunga, karoon tujhe bhi bebas,
shaurya ab mera bhi mann..
sapne bhi ab saath mere,
eshwar hi ye ishara kare..
is lamhe ko na doonga dhokha,
jab har pal mein tujhko hai dekha...