New Faces,

Always lend you a hand...

Old ones,

Heal you like time :) 

Live is what I would say,

For those whose mind goes sway...

Choosing what is right or wrong..

Sometime the movie's just too long.. 

The first rain drop makes the sand smell sweet,

Like a shelf of books kept neat..

Like the negligible gaps in the rails during summer,

Like the orbit of the flowers by the hummer.. 

A face that seems to be away but isn't..

A hand that once was, but isn't..

Plummet into abyss, sucked by a black hole.. 

I remember the one that touched my soul..

Hold my hand.. Hold me now.. 

You don't know what you miss and how.. 

I would nourish your thought 

if you give me a shot.. 

You're not watching this is what I know..

You deserve to know and not feel so low..

This is going nowhere is what I feel,

Helping you is my happy meal.. :) 

It seems like a troubled process… Of knowing.. Of understanding.. Of believing… Of observing.. Of talking.. Of listening.. Who is governing my thoughts.. ? What does he want..? How do I get out of the shackles of confusion..? Can I really achieve what I want when I’m like this..? Complete lack of eloquence.. Timing misjudged.. Sleep not pleasant.. Mind loitering around even though you’re hibernating.. What does all this mean..? Where am I going? I feel like the rustling of leaves teach me a lesson.. I feel like the silence is asking me to shut up although I’m not talking.. I feel like the 60 keys of my Synthesizer would come out and give me a big whack and laugh at me .. Off beat eh? My life looks like a fret board.. Covered with bars and strings.. Who the hell’s using the plectrum.. Must be a skilled musician..A professional rhythm guitarist messing up the chords of my mind.. All this is undone.. I’d get back at him.. He’s not gonna be around for long.. 

There’s someone in my head..

But I don’t know what he said..

Perspicacious as it seems..

My head seems to roll..

 

Hey wake up I need to talk..

He’s persuading me to kill him..

Needless.. heedless.. He whips me down..

Please help me stand up..

 

I can’t name this feeling..

But, it feels like a mirror..

He clutches my strength..

Valorous panoplies..

 

I’m lookin up..

Can’t see his face..

I’m lookin up..

I’m feelin the pain..

 

Get out.. Get the fuck out..

Get out.. Get the fuck out..

I have me now.. I have me now..

Revival of my mind..

 

Seems distant now..

He swears he’d be back..

I look him in the eye..

And say bring it on..

Sometimes when you sit n think what to write, so many thoughts flow through your mind... some troubling you.. some makin you happy... the smile of a friend when you miss him/her the most, but you dont really know why're you missing that person.. such thoughts always flow through my mind.. Someone with whom I connected at a level and that ended in a flash... We complicate life a lot... every moment.. every walk of life... Why didnt this code run? Why didnt my lead appreciate what I did today ? Am I worth, am I not? What would I be tomorrow ? Where would I be tomorrow ? Are these questions really necessary to know what you are today? Future is just another "Now" when you experience it. Live today.. Live simple... If you think I've lost it, go ahead.. It's not a day's experience which would you help to do it.. You need that someone in your life who connects at that level that you realize... Yes! Today I have everything... I start living from today... I will lead my life as it comes.. Lets go and kick some ass... !! :)

Those imperturbable eyes,
bowed by the skies..
The tenacious mind,
leaves all behind..
The incessant wisdom,
rarely comes to some..
The tranquil hold,
touches me to gold..
That serene smile,
walks me that extra mile... :)

A year passes by..

Head on..

I could see the thorns stuck-

Under my feet..

Bleeding and uncovered..

I felt the pain..

My soul cried out to my sole..

I wandered around,

Trying to find a pond

That would wash my wounds away..

But..

Without my knowledge..

I found a sea of love..

The waves which would –

Keep me away from the malice..

Of which I hadn’t thought of..

But came my way…

Unpredictable, unknown..

I saw those eyes..

Which saw where I walked..

And took me where I had to be..

I could see those three hundred –

Odd days of unpredictable,

Yet so predictable –

Days which I counted..

I loved holding the hand,

That had strength of assurance..

I know I have to keep walking,

At the pace of the legs –

Walking beside me..

Else I would stumble-

Upon the stone –

I tripped over walking faster…

She dances to her own tunes...
She composes her own sweet notes...
watchin all around,
she sees pages of her memoir..

She sees the big fishes,
caught with her tiny li'l hands..
She sees the pairs of eyes
which help her love her life...

She runs with joy,
she plunges into the ocean of laughter
and talks to the dolphins so beautiful...

She sips onto the coolest water of the lake,
she watches the stupendous sun,
fade away into the dark..

As the tune fades away,
and as the song ends,
she never feels bad that its over,
but she smiles....
thinkin of that perfect song created ... :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

As the leaves rustle through my hair, I feel the cool summer breeze heading my way... The one of assurance.. the feeling of a gentle kiss when you just need it.. Too many heads around me watch me work as I step into a new universe... A universe which I never imagined to be so lively.... but there are a few elements which exasperate my last nerve.. As the night passes by, I hear the heavy trucks unloading creating a havoc in the peaceful minds... but I'm not affected ... I wonder why... Many thoughts mutter along the snoring entities around me... I just sit and remember the game of table tennis I played ... Wish I had wings to fly, wish I could take a leap over the mountains, wish I could feel the cool air in my throat when I'm up there, wish I could go back to the place which made a difference in my life.. I've lived my wishes, I've seen my dreams come true, yet I ask for more... :)

The uprooted thoughts of the rooted mind.. The unbalanced branches of my mind forsake me until I see the light of a new thought.. The cliched routes of my thought process hacking the shifts of my existence... The niche in my unscrupulous actions, determined to be read by the hunting eyes around the corners of my face.. The non existence of a new reflex that I would want to comprehend..The depth and the ability to understand the hazy paths of emotions..The reactions that betray my thought process and help me switch over to a new world of abstractness..The inability to percerive the glowing light as a positive phenomenon.. The scarce and arid leaves of the unbalanced branches kiss the dew of propinquity.. The thoughts smile, the killer instinct which flows into a new being "revived"....

KEEPERS OF THE FLAME

The eyes see from the helm of the sun.. The eyes light the torch of malice.. The torch ignites the deserted roads of darkness.. The arms bear the unfinished activity of the torch.. Marathons begin... Athletes race for time.. Hoots and howls of the determined hyenas around.. The unscathed diamond shapes itself into a necklace of wisdom.. The experience, the will to hold onto the torch.. The arms shall switch, the fingers shall feel, the eyes shall see the flame burning alive and lighting up all the dungeons of thoughts...

The dusk of my new life.. The negative passion around me... The wait.. The wait for a period... The life of a new me.. The things happening are real.. Sometimes I feel I need to wake up from this dream.. I feel like I'll find myself back at home... but I step into this life of mine, like thousands of others... What dreams do they share ? What things did they leave behind ? Its eatin up my senses ... I know I'll burst like a meteor if I ponder... Ponder over the decision of my own... Ponder over the love that is away and measured by metres... The feelings will heal... The place will return to me..cause I belong to where I ought to be... :)

A chase ... Chase of a deer.. She's fast.. The white spots on her dark body is encircled by the dust.... She holds onto herself... She believes in her destiny and carries on with her race.. Her race to victory.. Triumph over an unknown wish... Triumph over the inchoate dreams... She clears the finishing line... Is she sure of her position ? Is she the one that holds onto her dreams ? Is she the one who won the winning path of winners ?

In these hours of silence, I see myself becoming dregs to these white walls, and as I dissolve into the world of malice and realize how fuzzy all these things are, I try to comply to the bivalent logic called Life... I felt so structured with the datum that I'd go "OOPS"... I did it again... How I used to imagine those angel faces and remain sane facing the atrocity... how things would fall in place seeing the beauty in their eyes... how i welcomed those smiles from the odd faces and read their eyes,and they seemed like books authored by me... How I wish i get back to them... a hug... a smile... I'd get shocks of happiness when I'm back... I hate this place as much as I love it... cause I live the bivalent logic called LIFE:)

LOOKING AHEAD

Walking through the flourished meadows,
savouring the sand so sweet...
It wouldn't be the acid rain this time,
nor the past that I'd want to meet...


Freedom from oppressed thoughts,
reaching the shore from the oceanic bed,
A feel to express my reticence,
to the nature I shall confess....

The tall grass seemed like an archway,
an archway to triumph I thought....
A tranquil sleep awaits me,
on the bed of roses and the earthy quilt..

BEING ME

I found truth in your farce speech,
but wonder what made me depraved...
was I just a puppet of your thoughts?
or was it the connotation of my life?

The heart that pumped my blood,
was the same as the souls born here..
the mind that thought my thoughts
was strung to you as your heir..

I was condescended to wash your worries,
I was becoming your panacea...
I plummeted in my own eyes,
I staggered along my strides...

I quavered in the hideous rain,
I reasoned out the inchoate atrocity,
what I saw through your eyes was my life,
the unsolicited gift of my birth....

CHILD'S PLAY

Everything seemed right to me,
but you pulled me back with disgust.
Scrupulously crafted fate lines...
disrupted by your oppression.

A smile of ecstasy,
hidden under your malice,
the haughtiness in your speech,
was the Lembas of my day...

I sought for what they sought,
nothing more did I ask.
I preferred the raging inferno,
over the shade of your homely roof...

The scorn of your contented smile,
the satire in your material love,
the game you took ages to learn....
I play it Everyday....

This is for people who like to dream....


Agony, pain, never greet me,
but they did today...
walkin through those familiar fields,
once which I called school...
an exchange of happiness,
a clueless purpose,
a sight of no one familiar,
but is it your identity ?
a fear so never wished creeped in..
he was with me.. he will be,
is he with me now ?
the incomplete reality..
how i sought your shelter,
how you took care of me..
an ideal life is what i wanted,
you had to be with me..
a story of time... a story so dear..
the wish of a dream,
comes true in the dream....

:)

barefoot on the rocks....

she walked down the pathway..
thinking of being hurt ...
a wound unhealed...
a retort didn't help... neither did love..
faith didn't fail.. hope was with her...
a beautiful life...withered
beauty came in with bitterness...
unseen love was touched...
and beauty felt a hint of a chum..
happiness came in as a boon,
the touched heart bloomed again..
she lived with the clouds...
rain, dancing with her feet...
she lived in her own world,
she saw her barefoot again...
the rocks seemed sharper now..
hazy roads, uncovered paths...
she thought of the beauty n happiness...
a realization ....the last point of thinking...
her feet had to be covered...
rocks will never fall... nor can she break em..

Light through my fingers !
These people seem familiar dont they ? :)

When the world seemed so dark and new,
you taught me how to see the brightness...

when i felt the strength fading in me,
you held my hand and took me for a stroll...

when i was scared of being hurt,
you covered me up and assured me i'm safe...

when i'd lost hope of a peaceful sleep,
you asked me to sleep on your lap...

when i thought some thing's amiss here,
i turned around and saw you... :)